Am I thinking too much?

Each time i think about it, my mind starts to wander off somewhere...

I tried to tell myself to take things easy.

But each time i failed to do so...

I tried to speak out my mind many times,

but it doesn't seem to work..

perhaps silence is the best solution

to all problems...

or is it not so?

or perhaps it was just a dream?

then i hope to wake up from it soon.

cause this dream seem to be a little too hurting for me...

i often thought time can solve many things.

but some things just cannot be solved even as time pass...

instead it got worse.

maybe not worse,

maybe it is just me..

when i was sitting on the bus,

i took out my phone,

wanted to send a message to console,

but i stopped.

look out of the window and think about it.

will you feel better?

or you won't...

maybe it is just me again...

thinking too much..

when i was walking in silence with you.

i wanted you to give me the hope..

give me confidence...

give me assurance..

give me faith...

but some what i dont seem to receive anything..

did i made a wrong choice to come...

maybe it is jus me again...

when i was sitting in the mrt...

i wanted to send you a message

but nothing came to my mind except disappointment.

so i give it a missed.

two ordinary humans...

two messages...

what could have happen if i had sent the two messages instead?

but it's all too late...

i made up my mind...

or did i not?

will someone please guide me...

in life, many things just don't seem to happen the way u wish it could happen..

the only comforting thing that you can still do is to close your eyes and maybe cry...

-My Silent Night